Friday, October 03, 2003
okok ppl... wat i put on the top of my blog was actually for my mom, for feli and for people who claim to love me but don't show it. i was having a major mental n emotional breakdown yesterday. and i was just pissed. i know u guys are the few who really love me. and you guys won't know how much i love you. it's more than what i can say. more than you can imagine. i hope you all know tt. thanks for being there always. :) im blessed.
okok...
this song is kinda describing wat i feel inside now. wat happened yest. and why i cried. i cried cos of my mom. cos of feli. cos of heartache. cos of me.
Speak and the Devil Appears
by Audio Karate
and everything goes through me on a Tuesday night
feeling wrong yet right.
I won't admit I'm wrong
dramatize and move along
and everything you say I push down inside
a hole where it can hide
resurfaces today
its leaking out me through the sides
of the story that I've been victimized
I have to realize and face up to my faults
the irony it makes me strong
convienient thinking used to mean everything
i think i can't be wrong
the lies i feed myself
a selfish figure shows itself
a figure shows itself
HEY!
so will you go on
when you can't see the darkest part inside
of me a darker future lurks unseen
will you forgive me?
forgive myself
how the end will turn out we don't know
this hibernation heals the soul
so please let me go
you're on your own
seems we can't face one last embrace
and i will return one lesson learned
please say goodbye
inside i die
as i hid behind me fears
i've lost what i hold dear
and the truth is what i fear
and i speak and the devil appears
--insignificant lies--
6:22 pm